Thank you, Madam

In a few days I am leaving the office for good. I spent two years and two months on this job. Short stint for a job, ayt? Landing this job was the most important to me back then. After experiencing being miserable because of wrong decisions, off-timing resignation and no call-back applications, getting signed for a permanent job is the best thing that I wished for. This job gave me the chance to regain my confidence, to realize that I am not a useless, unskilled, and an average university graduate.

I'm grateful that my [third] manager saw something in me, despite being a half-a-year unemployed applicant whose background does not have anything to do with the job they are recruiting for. Maybe I was lucky that her applicant perception and hiring standards were different from others and thus I was chosen. Or maybe, the interview and exam were too easy thus she had no choice but to continue with a final interview with me? Pfft.

I have to admit I did not build a great rapport with her compared to my previous superiors. I am okay with my first superior (Editor-in-Chief), although we lost contact since I left. I am in constant communication with my second superior (Supervisor) who lives out of NCR, through Facebook chat. Our daily lives poured in words every night we chat. With the third, it felt like the relationship was pure business. We came to a point that we had out-of-office bond, but still it's not "me-and-her" kind of thing. Maybe she or I was aloof; we rarely approach each other; conversations were direct and curtailed, no mid-break chitchats, no hi-hellos. Add to that that I gradually distanced myself to all of the members of the team. Among the superiors I had she's the "most corporate", no efforts exerted but got the authoritarian vibe. Probably honed by the years she spent handling people in major corporations in the busy business districts. Two years and two months and I did not get to hear most of her stories, her language, her lessons. Maybe it's also my fault that our boss-subordinate relationship ended this way. I'm not the type to get close to superiors anyway, teachers back in school, supervisors, trainers and mentors. I just would not present myself in front of them. Probably because I'm afraid to be mistaken as a kissing-the-boss'-ass kind of person?

I think the most that I humanly got in touch with her was at the point when she got the vibes that I am looking for another job (I got found out, LOL). And that was like 45 days before I leave the job! But the talks were still one-sided since it were about me and not an exchange of stories.

Anyway, basically this blog entry is supposedly about her, But all I can write about are ramblings based on what I see in her, not what I experienced WITH her. That's kind of unfortunate actually, since all I can say are what I saw and heard from her, not what I have observed and listened to.

But the good thing is that the last 45 days were not wasted in silence. Hehe. At the very least I still acquired some nuggets of wisdom from her.

1. Managers tend to hire people who they think they can work with easily. Observe body language during job interview. You already have the skill, but you got to be a likable person as well.

2. Assholes are everywhere in the office. You just got to pick which assholes is worth the fight.
3. Chasing after your passion would be a reason to give up something, including a job.
4. Business transitions in the the corporate world are normal, and you have to accept that one day you may be the priority and at some other point you will not be.
5. Don't reason out that you don't want to leave a job/company because of friends/people attachment. You have to chart your career professionally.

Thanks, Maam.


P.S. I hate blog posts without pictures.

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